I cannot believe I have already been home for about three months! It has been quite the emotional roller coaster since I've been home. It's always difficult to leave the ones you have grown to love intimately in the past nine months. People I grew with, people I made mistakes in front of, people who know me better than anyone else right now. People I did not even know existed 13 months ago. Yes, it has been one year since I first set foot in India. The country that scared me more than anything else, but now I call "home."
I'm not exactly sure how it came to be that I fell in love with India. The people, the places, the customs. Sure, some of it...a lot of it is still very overwhelming and incomprehensible at times but that's what makes living in India so exciting and full of eye and mind opening experiences. The people there are so community minded, family minded, and it's very hard to come back to a very individualistic culture. I have found myself depressed many times here because I'm never around anyone anymore. Every one is at work when I'm at home and then my family and friends are home when I'm at work. At least at work I still get to be surrounded by Indian people and Indian culture. Yes, I have found a job at an Indian restaurant/grocery in Maple Grove called Curry Up. Come on down if you are in the area! We have good Indian food!
A lot of changes are happening in my life right now. I have realized that I don't need priorities. That only stresses me out. I need to seek FIRST the kingdom of God and everything else will be added. That's the only time Jesus speaks on "priorities" and it isn't even called a priority. It's the first and only thing to do basically. I want to figure out what this means in my life and figure out how to see myself through God's eyes. My head and heart need a lot of healing, cleaning out, and organizing. I hope to begin this journey of finding myself, seeking Him first, and how in the world to apply all the things I have learned studying the Bible in the past year. I also don't want to stop studying His words. That is one reason why I wish to staff SBS for two years. So I don't discontinue digging deeper into His wisdom and His story (History!).
Come back for more updates on how I am doing in this process, this journey of limbo between SBS student and SBS staff. I have a feeling it's going to be life changing like only our wonderful Maker does best! I just hope that I do my best to love him and love others while I'm home.
