Do You Know Him?

Why would someone who is a "Christian" have an entire blog that is only putting up hateful words and arguments that another church is completely wrong?

Why would a church put so much concern on volunteering only within the church and bringing the "lost souls" in to hear the gospel when the early church was so keen on sending people away to spread the gospel?

How can two people who say they love God and are obeying His will be so sure the other is completely wrong? I thought we were all on the same side here.

What's the difference between a church spending millions of dollars to make the building bigger, have more seats, cooler, and have a super awesome bookstore and coffee shop and huge auditorium with lights and stage and recording equipment...what's the difference between that church and the old cathedrals in Europe covered in gold from all the money given as indulgences?

What's wrong with thinking worship should never be a performance?

Is it okay to not take sides? Is it okay to take the alternate route? I'm pretty sure that's what Jesus did. Jew? Gentile? Actually, what about this instead? Catholic? Protestant? Actually, there might be something more. Isn't God more than labels and rules and regulations and volunteers and accusations and boxes and shelves and music and projector screens? Isn't He more than ideas and opinions and discussions and dissections? Isn't he more than money and fame and books and numbers?

He is bigger than any of my feelings.
He's bigger than my mistakes.
He is bigger than my shame.
He's more than just my opinions.
He is greater than my "wisdom."
He is bigger than my depression.
He's bigger than my love and bigger than my hate.
He is greater than all my habits.

That's my King.

You Said You'd Lend Me Anything.

Home, sweet home.
I think being home is wonderful! It is not easy though. I caught a cold and from my second day back until now I am sneezing, coughing, going through kleenex boxes like anything, and my main staples each day have become Mucinex, Dayquil and Nyquil. I cannot go on much longer like this.

It sure is wonderful to be with my family again, spending time with my mom, my dad, Justin, and the beautiful newer family that lives in our basement consisting of one of my older brothers, his wife, her daughter, and their new 3 month old baby boy! It's quite wonderful.

I cannot help but wonder sometimes am I really making the right choice in choosing India? Am I really just choosing India or am I choosing God? I believe it's both. Sure, living in India for the rest of my life terrifies me. I constantly find myself thinking about finances for a married couple in the mission field in India, then I think what about getting older and all those doctor appointments that are so necessary in the US but I don't know that they even have them in India. Where will I have children and how will I raise them? Coming home is good because my family is asking a lot of good questions, but it is also very hard because it is making me second guess decisions and committments. I just keep praying God will continue to give me grace in certain situations and peace about the future.

I still cannot officially say what the future holds, but I can write it here for all to read soon! A lot of you already know, but nothing is official yet.

I am looking forward to my next two months at home to study, prepare, and really just rest in the presence of God. It will be good to clear my head and heart and get my focus straight again.